Sex Addict Ka Ba?

Kamakailan lang, nanood ako ng Oprah (so baklush hehehe)at ang paksa ay tungkol sa sex addiction. Syempre naman napukaw ang interes ko noh. Sa totoo lang araw-araw (minsan pa nga higit) ako nagsasalsal kaya ayun na-intriga ako. Gusto kong masukat kung gaano kalala ang pagkahumaling ko sa torjak kaya naman nagresearch ako sa net at ang nakita ko ay ang Sex Addicts Anonymous(there is such thing pala). Kinopya ko ang quiz sa homepage at pinagsikapan ko itong sagutin...kahit mahirap (charing!).

Q: Do you keep secrets about your sexual or romantic activities from those important to you? Do you lead a double life?
A: Yes. Hindi ako kiss-and-tell na tao noh. At bakit ko naman sasabihin sa parents ko? Ano etoh Big Brother? Baka atakehin pa sila sa puso noh. Dyusko.

Q:Have your needs driven you to have sex in places or situations or with people you would not normally choose?
A:Yes. Gusto mo iisa-isahin natin? Sa mini-wharf, sa likod ng eight-wheeler, sa bakanteng lote, sa mall CR, sa cubicle ng cybercafe, sa sinehan, sa madilim na bangketa, etc.. baka umagahin pa tayo. Kung tao naman, iba-iba. Class A to Z ang market ko, I'm not choozy kasi. May foreigner pa nga eh. Oo na, ang harot ko!

Q:Do you find yourself looking for sexually arousing articles or scenes in newspapers, magazines, or other media?
A:Yes. Pati nga Biblia eh. Joke!(Pwede ring hinde hehehe)

Q:Do you find that romantic or sexual fantasies interfere with your relationships or are preventing you from facing problems?
A:No. Hindi ko alam. Basta alam ko, may problema man o wala nagbabate ako.

Q:Do you frequently want to get away from a sex partner after having sex? Do you frequently feel remorse, shame, or guilt after a sexual encounter?
A:Yes. Mahilig ako sa anonymous sex. Pero minsan nauulit kasi wala nang choice. Mahirap kaya makahanap sa probinsya, kala nyo.

Q:Do you feel shame about your body or your sexuality, such that you avoid touching your body or engaging in sexual relationships? Do you fear that you have no sexual feelings, that you are asexual?
A:No. Pero dati ashamed ako na bading ako. Nakaraan na yun, part na yun ng identity crisis. Asexual? Mahilig nga nga sa sex tapos sabihin nyo asexual?

Q:Does each new relationship continue to have the same destructive patterns which prompted you to leave the last relationship?
A: No. Technicalitywise kasi wala naman akong serious relationship eh. Puro fuck buddies lang. Kumbaga eh walang personalan, gamitan lang...

Q:Have you ever been arrested or are you in danger of being arrested because of your practices of voyeurism, exhibitionism, prostitution, sex with minors, indecent phone calls, etc.?
A:No. I don't think I have any sexual paraphilia. I hate prostitution because I believe that sex should be free. Most of my fuckmates naman are college level and I'm not a pedophile. Phonecalls, uhmmm I tried phone sex. Yun lang. Pero kung kakosa ko eh katulad ni Joem Bascon or Coco Martin, okey lang kahit life imprisonment (jejeje).

Q:Is it taking more variety and frequency of sexual and romantic activities than previously to bring the same levels of excitement and relief?
A:No. Although sometimes nauumay din ako sa parehong ulam. Sori po, tao lang.

Q:Does your pursuit of sex or romantic relationships interfere with your spiritual beliefs or development?
A:Yes. In fact, I'm a member CFC-Youth for Christ which clearly denounces homosexuality (lahat naman siguro diba?). It's good to know though that they discourage gay jokes. So the dilemma is there. I'll just pray for a win-win solution perhaps...

Q:Do your sexual activities include the risk, threat, or reality of disease, pregnancy, coercion, or violence?
A: Yes. I'm only pertaining to the disease-HIV. Minsan kasi pag nasa act of doing na, pag nasasarapan, out of control na hehehe. Not a fan of S-M. Masakit na nga ang anal dadagdagan mo pah?. Buntes, hmmm how I wish. Coercion? with consent hehe.

Q:Has your sexual or romantic behavior ever left you feeling hopeless, alienated from others, or suicidal?
A: No. Medyo nagiguilty lang ako after sex kasi parang hindi ako nasusulitan. You know na, may pagka-Lumen ako. Suicidal? Neverrrr. Sayang ang ang katawan ko kung papatayin lang, marami pa naman ang "makikinabang" (haha feeling).

So there you go, 6 out of 10. Kaso nashock ako when it was stated: "If you answered yes to more than one of these questions, we would encourage you to seek out additional literature as a resource or to attend a Sex Addicts Anonymous meeting to further assess your needs."

Naku, hindi ko na kailangan ang rehab. Ang kailangan ko pala milagro (harhar)!